yes, I see my counselor on Tuesday. Is a therapist better? Sometimes I feel like I am just filling her in and she tells me I am doing everything right. Thanks everyone, I needed to be reminded to take care of me. But he is not the kind of person to take the lead. I would have to be the one to initiate anything, except sex that is. This is such a roller coaster I am on as many of you are too, this time is just harder it seems. I am not feeling joy about anything, even the gifts I am buying for my son, which gets me excited usually.