Welcome Closet Drinker..This is an incredible site for support. When I decided to throw in the alcoholic towel I started reading everything I could get my hands on about addiction..and joined here. That binging leads to everyday drinking in so fast you don't even know what hit you. I can't pinpoint when it happened..it just did. I guess I just focus on all the negative aspects. I read alot on liver failure..I scared myself into sobriety..Good luck. I wish you the best!