Welcome. You've come to the right place. Lots of people will be around who can help you much more than I can. I made the mistake of marrying my alcoholic and it was the biggest mistake of my life. My life became totally insane. We ended up divorced after six years. I'm still getting over it.
Your boyfriend is the only one who can help himself. I thought if mine had a stable environment then he would be able to stay sober. Instead my stable environment became unstable. All you can do is to take care of yourself. This forum has lots of good information. Also AlAnon is a wonderful source of support. Educate yourself all that you can on the disease of alcoholism. That's the best gift that you can give yourself for Christmas.
We're glad you found us. Please stay around.