Good God Woman. Please consider seeking a recovery program for your addiction to alcoholics and/or drama, either through counseling or Al-Anon.
In my opinion while this forum is pretty awesome, it isn't enough. I believe it must be supplemented with counseling, Al-Anon, or both. For me it's both, so I have a three-pronged attack on my addiction to alcohlics and addicts. In order of importance for me its Al-Anon, Counseling, SR.
Take care and good luck,
Cyranoak