Hmmmmm...I was listening to the radio last night and they were talking about whether or not love was enough. A man called in and said that love could conquer all. That if you are truly in love, you can get through anything. I wholeheartedly disagree and vehemently. I think that you can fall in love with someone that causes you a great deal of pain. You can love them deeply but not be able to live with them. I believe this with all my heart.
Sometimes you have to let someone go, to live a healthy life. Or distance yourself from them to see that you truly don't love them or you don't love them in a healthy way. Or you do love them but they are causing you too much pain right at the moment. Not saying this is your case....but you just sound like you are in so much pain. I hate to see anyone living their life like that. Life is too short....a cliche I know...but it's true.