Just when I start wanting to search deeper in why I became an alcoholic, one short thread post produces such a productive response.
I am the mental alcoholic, craving that elusive feeling it produces, even though I know it will lead to a bad ending someday.
It took twenty years of trying to stop...to stop and want to remain that way. Now I understand why I need to never drink again, and that clarity took a long time to appear. Hopefully every person searching for that clarity will one day have the gratification of discovering it. It's up to that person to want it.
Toss