I also know how difficult it can be still after several years away from your addict. I am still trying to figure out who I am and what I want. But I do know this....I do not want to go back to him. I may still have a lot of unanswered questions about myself and am still working my own program, but without him in my life....I am happy. Thank you for the reminder that this is something that we will have to work on everyday, for the rest of our lives....sometimes I forget that. You take care girl...