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I am so sorry that you are dealing with the fear and anxiety. It's ok for your son to be angry with you. It's OK! Let him be angry. Let him hate you for a while. They say that but believe me.......they don't mean it. He loves you. He knows you love him.
I envy you in a way.....yes....you read that right. I wish I had had the courage to send my son to rehab earlier in the beginnings of his drug use. I wish I had had the wisdom to seek help for myself earlier than I did because I needed it every bit as much as he did. If I had just KNOWN that I needed help, perhaps I could have kept my head on straighter so that I didn't head down the spiral with him.
Take care of you and keep us posted on how the meeting goes.
gentle hugs