Welcome to this great forum. Boy I can identify with everything you are going thru only I'm one of those that responded for years back and forth to my ex alcoholic husband. I still love him and think of him and hope he doesn't die but I don't go see him anymore, I dont' react to his needless and senseless ranting anymore. God I hate text mesages, I stayed hooked to him for a long time that way....it was always the same messages you have been getting too...good luck to you, it's hard when we keep thinking he will change, the only person in the world we can change is ourselves, don't give up and keep coming to read at this forum. hugs to you and strength coming your way.