Thanks for the replies Bernadette and jds0401.
I do not live with my boyfriend. We live 80 miles from each other which in hindsight is probably a good thing. I am definately open to advice and other's similar stories. I guess I know down deep what I have to do and how far I have let this go, it is that I am just recently acknowledging it. I have read here for a bit before registering and I like how supporting it is without being a pity party. I guess I am seeing that I am letting him control how I feel about myself and I have to take that control back. Joining this forum is my first step in doing that. I'm sure not there yet, but I am working on my destination. Forgive me if I just post my rambling thoughts and feelings in this thread.