Teggie!
If you were here GF I'd have a big hug for you. You are a sweet sweet person and I appreciate that you've poured your heart out for all of us on here to learn along with you.
All, I can say and you probably know it in your heart already, is you are right to be cautious. I read a quote in one of my fitness magazines that blew me away the other day. 40% of the issues a typical person worries about each day never occur. Yes, it's an average and I'm sure we could make worry more and make more actually happen but my point is we have a nearly a 50/50 chance with everything. I don't want to get hit by a truck, but I have to cross the road. I think for me to not get hit by the truck I have to work on how to cross the road safely. Keep working on you (you are doing great btw), keep focusing on you (I'm working on this one as you know), Keep telling yourself how far you've come and how great you are doing!
I'm still working on that spontaneous, dancing in the kitchen person I used to be!
BIG HUGS
Marci