sublimekid93,
It sounds like to me you are an individual that is susceptible to addictions. It sounds like you substituted your addiction to alcohol for your girlfriend!
An individual that is susceptible to addictions may switch from one addiction to the other or even sustain multiple addictions at different times. The addictions may include drug abuse or addiction to alcohol, pornography and certain activities, such as gambling, video games, etc. Such personalities switch to other enjoyable activities, the moment they are deprived of enjoyment in their previous addiction. An individual is considered to be at the risk of developing such addictions when he/she exudes aggression, anxiety, depression or lack of self-control and does not know how to manage his/her emotions. The people suffering from addictive personalities are very sensitive to stress. They find
it highly intimidating to tolerate frustrating situations, even if it is for a very short duration. Such people often lack self-esteem, show impulsive behavior and usually have a sense of heightened level of stress. Mood swings is another visible symptom of addictive personalities. Addictive individuals feel highly insecure, when it comes to relationships. They may often find it difficult to make commitments in relationships or trust their beloved. They constantly seek approval of others. As a result, misunderstandings might creep in, which in turn, would ruin their relationships. People suffering from addictive personality disorder usually undergo depression and anxiety
The main reason behind such behavior is that they are fearful of being caught. The feeling of isolation often haunts people facing the problem of addiction. To substitute the lack of personal relationships, they turn towards drugs, smoking, alcohol consumption, or the like, thinking that such harmful substances are "quick-fix" solutions for their life's problems.
Counseling is the best remedy for individuals susceptible to addictions. Psychotherapy is another way to treat addictive personality disorder. The therapy is aimed at addressing the emotional underpinning of the individual, because the majority of the addictions stem from the person’s inability to handle stressful situations, anger and other strong emotions.
You have started on your road to recovery by posting here on SR!
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