I have diaries in storage that go back to 1991 and document leaving my marriage, meeting RABF and the nightmares of being involved with the monster her became when drunk, my finding SR and up to the present.
They have been a wonderful affirmation of progress, and explanation of why I did the walk out on both Late XAH and ABF. They also are striking examples in glorious technicolour, to me of why I will NEVER tolerate again, any of the sick behavior, abuse and stress of the past.