Welcome to SR, you made a wise choice to seek help for yourself.
Yes, that's right, I said "yourself"...you cannot help your alcoholic boyfriend. Nothing you do or don't do will influence his abuse of alcohol and drugs.
But you can take care of yourself. Keep reading here, and posting, and try to find an Al-Anon meeting, even if it is on-line.
The more you learn, the better able you will be to make the choices that are right for you.
In my experience, it is impossible to have an intimate relationship with an active alcoholic. They are not capable; it is our fantasy that we have it, but we don't. My exabf said he could stop drinking if I was not there to mistrust him...I knew I had to leave right then. Because they will blame us, they will do anything and say anything to protect their addiction, and take the focus off their actions.
Take care of you; glad you are here
