And then I get my hopes up anyway, and then after the big letdown, feel stupid because I let myself be "suckered" again. That's a hard balance to find - being hopeful and optimistic against waiting for the hurt to come.
I have a major depressive disorder (being treated successfully, but I need to talk to the doctor) but I am the most optimistic depressive ever! I can find good things in my life.
Yeah, I can talk the talk too. I am doing it now. LOL
The balance seems impossible now.
I am in the middle of a big letdown, and man, it sucks. Really sucks.
Feel foolish right now.
Beth