It's okay not to trust him.
It's okay not to support him.
It's okay to be angry.
These are your feelings.
They are valid.
You are important and your feelings matter.
I am sorry that you are not getting face to face support in your community.
We are here to support you as you try to put your life back on track.
Can I ask you a question?
Are you just angry at him, or are you angry at you?
I thought I was only angry at my Alcoholic. After I put down my magnifying glass that kept me focused on him and his behaviors, I picked up my mirror and looked at what I had been accepting in my life. I looked and saw time after time I put up with unacceptable behavior. Then I really started to get mad, and I was mad at me!
I had to stew in my anger for some time. I still get upset when I remember certain events. There is a difference now, however.
The difference in my life now is forgiveness. I had to forgive my A for not being what I wanted him to be. AND I had to forgive myself for not taking better care of ME.
Please let us know how we can help you through this time of frustration.