Outside of the loss of your loved one, I'd guess that your life and health have improved, and will continue to do so with time.
((It was her loved one, I never met him))
I'm concerned that you're unable to separate your recovery from hers. Perhaps her role in your life was to catalyze change positive change.
((I never thought of it quite like this)) Well, I have thanked her for setting me on the path to recovery...but this is in a different perspective!! Thank-You.