3betrayed, please be assured that you are not the only one who has suffered such horrors. I know someone who slept with everyone in their spouse's family, brothers and father included. Everyone has now found out that the men in the family were all having sex with this person over many years and it all revolved around drug and alcohol abuse and addiction. She is very sick and so are they. The only advice I have is to go to Al-Anon and to keep talking about what you have experienced. Sometimes I think that the first step in this process is really to see that we are not alone.