I get it, coffee. Often, the future enslaves me. Also I have found the resistence I feel is because I have not known anything else other than suffering, sadness. So its fear of the new.. and often its not that I am brave or anything, for me it is just TIREDNESS of feeling the same way over and over again and realizing I am unable to move forward. Thus what others believe or say in the meetings that I don't totally agree with, is less important -I know there are many other ideas I can benefit from... and the knowledge there is someone else going through the same situation. BTW I am not fond of established religions but I can respect others (as they respect me).
Pictures like these are what I imagine when someone says HP or God, helps me be humble and put my little life in perspective
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