breaking,
i am sorry you are so sad. you have every reason to be -- it feels like a set-up when they begin to look like they might get sober, and then it lasts such a short time. you have this little honeymoon period, get hopeful, and then feel kicked in the stomach.
i can't remember if you've said you have tried al-anon. when nothing changes, nothing changes. when something does change, well....
what can you change today?
hope you feel better soon.