Sorry to hear this Sasa....but I am so glad you are back. Learn from this and do it different. I found that I needed more support...maybe you might need that to? I will say that no matter how good my routine was if I wasn't strong in my recovery it didn't matter how many vitamins I took or how good of day I had.....know what I am saying? Getting into recovery allows me to live life with all its ups/downs and turning to the bottle doesn't even enter my mind. Takes some time and work but I know you will get there.
Routing for you and know you can do this. Looking forward to the new you