Right now- large emotional disconnect. Anger & frustration on both sides. No intimacy, at all. I'm being chided constantly. For instance right now- disassociation. Detachment? Things seem to get better, then worse again between us. I remember when things were good. That helps some. I can't control what is going on with her. I made myself sick trying to.
Anyway, it's difficult after having such a great emotional attachment and the going to alcoholic-emotional disconnect. My heart aches watching her go through this crap. I've learned by trail, error, & Al-Anon that I can't help her. I do my best to take care of myself & hope that she gets "it". I feel like I can't wait much longer for her, but I don't want to give up on our marriage yet.