Thanks!
I can not offer anymore suggestions to him good or bad.
I had another panic attack last night just talking about our past together. My heart was racing and I had pain in my chest.
All of my anger that I have. Him drinking vodka the night we brought our first born son home and verbally abusing me in front of his mother making me call the police and running out in the dead of winter w/ a 7 day old newborn baby!!!
I cannot forget any of it and the more i think about it I almost despise him. He is still sleeping in the guest bedroom and I am scared that I will never ask him to sleep in the same bed w/ me again. There are so many other occurrences that I have dealt w/ and turned a cheek when he was drinking. How embarrased he has made me and changed my view of myself. It is depressing....