i can relate to you so much. i sometimes feel like having an affair. why? because i still have life left in me. because i am still an attactive, beautiful person with so much love to give and a husband who would rather drink and pass out then make love to his wife. i've only been married for 3 years to this guy and he was once my best friend. maybe deep down i knew it might have been a mistake to marry him because of that but i thought it was a good foundation to start on....boy was i wrong.
but i feel trapped, just like you Sassyea.... and i hate that he makes me eat away my anxiety and anger. and i'm not as angry at him for not changing but more angry at myself for being such a coward and not finding a way to leave. i believe everyone has a fuse...some longer than others. mine must stretch around the world and back.