thanks Vanilla
I appreciate it, especially cming from your current state. I think I'm just looking for some form of connection. I've hated AA in the past, perhaps I need to try it. I"m just so terribly lonely and its been my addictive nature that has gotten me in this seat. I'm terrified bc I have my addiction issues built into my creative process too (I'm an artist) and I dunno if i'll be able to be as "creative" anymore without this cructh.
How many times have you gone thru this? What helps you?