Welcome to the SR family!
You will find loads of support and information here. There are sticky (permanent) posts at the top of this forum. They contain some of our stories and loads of wisdom.
I am so sorry that you are suffering physical stress symptoms. I was a hot mess while living with my active alcoholic. (now divorced)
I was awfulizing (stinking thinking and worrying about the future) and felt stuck as a SAHM (stay at home mom). I finally reached my emotional/mental bottom. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired of the same old, same old.
One of the things I did to stop my awfulizing was to consult with an attorney. I spoke with two different attorneys to find out what my options were in my state. That information helped me form a plan for my future.
Please let us know how we can help you.
You are not alone!
We understand