Italy? Nice. Nice distraction too. What would be a good distraction for me would be learning all about what's inside Italian delicatessens. Not sure what delis are called over there but I know that they are filled with very yummy stuff. Maybe learn how to make some nice dinners for your spouse to distract her from any anger that might arise? Cannollis would help too. LOL.
I believe there are 12-Step/A.A. meetings here on SR. You can go to those, right?
I've thought a little more about your original question and I think it might be helpful if you give more thought to what are your fears. And write them down. When I first got into Recovery, I started journaling. All you need is a spiral notebook and a pen. Every day I would write about all the things going on in my head, etc. It helps. Try it.
And remember:
Feel the fear and do it anyway.