Hi BSU - I get that way sometimes when I think about friends going out and socializing.... However, I never stopped when they did - I never wanted to stop and go home. If I had to go home, I stopped to get more. It wasn't about the "pleasant buzz" - it was about drinking at an unhealthy level (to put it mildly).
I know that's it one or the other for me now: live and adjust to live as it is, or have my escape and pay for it in pain and misery.
Keep positive - it will get better!:ghug3