Originally Posted by
least 
What I really missed was the '
escape', which it
really isn't at all - it's a
trap and at the end I was ready to chew my leg off to get out of it...
I do miss drinking sometimes. It's funny how fast you can forget the bad times. I can't let myself forget all the things I missed because I was too sick and hungover - all the times I was miserable and didn't enjoy things I would otherwise enjoy. I miss the "escape", and sometimes I forget it's a dark hole of lost self control. It's crazy how deceiving it is. The disease tells me that it will be an escape, but really it's just me giving all my power over to the alcohol and disease. That's not freedom.