Originally Posted by
Freedom1990 
I haven't been a practicing Catholic for over 30 years now.
I struggled with the God concept myself, because the only version I knew was the one of my parents' and the Catholic church's understanding.
What I did know was that I saw something working for the people in those rooms, something that I wanted too.
I kept an open mind, one that was open to new concepts.
So I started by viewing the group as my higher power. They certainly had more knowledge and experience collectively than me.
It was a slow gradual process, and eventually I did find a God of my own understanding, not the one my parents or the Catholic church understood.
Yes, an open mind. I am trying. Even if I don't sound like I am here.
I have this feeling they are trying to convert me!
That could be my problem that I view it that way.
The program, the steps, feels like conversion.