Thanks for the replys. I think my problem is that I somehow associate "good times" and drinking. The insanity tells me that "it's OK to go out and party tonight...you deserve it".
I only hope my sponsor is as willing to tolerate what happened as you people. I'm thinking he may want me to go to a 28 day inpatient program. That is not possible for me now.
I will attend a meeting tomorrow night for sure.