not only did I use to have thoughts of my ex AH dying but I remember BEGGING GOD to kill us both!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Him because of all the damage and havoc he was causing and me because I was so miserable living!!!!
I felt if we both died at least I had managed to pay the life insurance and our girls would have money to live on and be much better off.
God never answered that prayer. Today I'm grateful I'm alive - my ex is still out there doing what addicts do, but I'm healthier and hopefully by God's Grace giving my girls a little bit better Life Skills by my example than what I did before.
Every Al-Anon or family member of an Alcoholic/addict that I have ever talked to has had those same feelings - so take a deep breath, relax and maybe do something good, healthy and recovery oriented for YOU today
YOU deserve it!!
PINK HUGS,
Rita