Danjhoff, I'm worried for your safety being in the same home as this woman. Even if it seems like you're in love when she isn't abusing you, that isn't love. She is so deep in her addiction that she can't possibly be in love with anyone or anything other than alcohol. Men can absolutely be abused too and it's just as bad as when a woman is abused. Please take care of yourself. She is worth the help if she chooses to seek recovery, but you are worth it too.