I just lost it!
How stupid am I? After weeks of detachment and (although in the same house) living seperate lives, I just felt so angry and ranted at my ABF for about 20 minutes non-stop. i have been so calm recently and will do anything to aviod confrontation and now this - I just wanted to hurt him so bad and provoke some sort of reaction from him, make him hurt like I'm hurting. I lashed out, threw cold water on him (what's that about??) and really, truly wanted to see him suffer. I just don't know where all the anger suddenly came from (well probably from years and years of living with the lies, broken promises, yadda yadda yadda) I am so fed up with it all. Sorry i can't even verbalise how I feel properly.