Oh, and don't worry about the feeling "I wish I had never had kids".... you are SO not alone there!! My best friend and I say that ALL the time!!! We dream of what our lives would be like now if we had had our tubes tied at the age of 18! LOL I'd be on that beach in Maui I dreamed about last night. I'd have way fewer gray hairs! I'd be skinny, dammit!! But noooooooooo....!!! Hey, I even asked my doctor at the age of 25 to tie my tubes and he wouldn't do it! I should sue the hell out of him and send him all these psychiatrist bills I've got to pay!
No, you are definitely not alone with those feelings, my dear. :ghug3