Hi Busy
I'm an alcoholic. Once I start I don't stop. Even after six months of sobriety, that first drink had me, once I have the first one I just crave more and more until I can't drink anymore during that session.
First comes the obsession - I would think about having a drink and that becomes "thought of the day". I couldn't shake it, everything else in life would suddenly become "boring" or "I don't want to do that" or I would subconciously rubbish anything else that didn't involve drinking. This of course would justify the first one - then after the first one the physical compulsion would kick in - just one more, just one more, just one more .......
That's me. I'm an alcoholic.
much love
JC