Pelican

I just re-read your posts.

Your background is:
Mother to two, ages 6 and 3
Wife to a relapsed alcoholic. AH has a history of DUI.
Full-time employee.
right?

Have you accepted the three C's of your husbands alcoholism?:
You did not Cause this
You can not Control this
You will not Cure this

This is his addiction. This is also his recovery. He is an adult and can find his own transportation and rehab facility.

I know that is harsh, but you have two young children at home. They can not feed, clothe, nurture themselves. They need a sober responsible adult to take care of them.

Please give your AH to your HP.

I focused so much on my AH and trying to prevent the next incident, that I lost focus on myself and my children. I was as addicted to him and his behavior as he was to alcohol. My children were learning to follow my actions: walk on eggshells while accepting unacceptable behavior.

I had to admit I was powerless over alcohol and my life had become unmanageable.