Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement. I really do appreciate it. Im usually not at a loss for words and i thought when i finally did start to post that the floodgates would open but strangly i cant think of what to say. I guess today is a calm day. All I know is that I hope that i can figure this out and find some kind of peace for my self. I know i am really fed up with all the drama. I know I (all of us) deserve that but its looking more like starting all over again is the only solution. A very difficult decision after so many years but I am losing any hope of her finding sobriety.