Originally Posted by
Hollyanne 
I think from the way you asked, you might go to rehab for the wrong reasons. Go on to AA/NA and get face to face support. Keep in mind you did what lots of people do, "more research" Now you have the answer! You are so lucky to be learning this so young.
It is not easy getting and staying sober, but it easier than what we were doing.
I have had a few ups and downs. You learn. It is OK.
Also, forget your pride etc. Nothing we do getting sober is half as embarrassing as what we have done under the influence so go talk to someone! Maybe start by calling one of the counsellors from rehab. Do you honestly think you are the only one feeling like this? The counsellors might even have done it! Oh, and keep coming here! Let us know what is going on. Big hugs.
Thanks a lot for such helpful advice, really appreciate it. My feelings of shame and guilt have been too strong to talk to any of the councilors although i have given it a lot of thought. My original plan, considering i never liked going to AA ( overturning that decision tmrw), was to continue my rehabilitation process with one of the councilors once rehab was over. But yeah you are a hundred percent right, nothing is more embarrassing and shameful than what we do under so it really makes no sense why my behaviour continues. I will give her a call tomorrow and get this over with.
To All: you really have no idea how helpful youve been. knowing that I am not the only one whose ever felt this way (as ridiculous as it sounds) makes me feel great. Thank you for everyones suggestions and responses.