(((Tam))) - I'm sorry for what is going on, and how you found out.
I, too, love ((Freedom's)) visualization. I use it, as a dear friend always tells me "God has you in the palm of His hand" and I have to remember that he also has those I love and care about in His hands, too. I still slip and slide, sometimes, get into "worry mode" but I'm learning that it really doesn't change anything and I'm getting better at letting go sooner than I used to. It just takes time and practice.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy