Freedom1990-thank you for your reply! I do/did think I could love him enough to make him "better." I started that with the drinking. I blamed other things in his life and knew I could "fix" him. After 6 years I am coming to realize I can't fix him.
He actually told me the other night as he was leaving "Baby, there are just some things you cannot do for me." At the time I had no clue what he was talking about. Now I think he was trying to tell me this is something he has to do on his own. I see glimpses of him wanting recovery but I know he is just now there yet.