hi-
so sorry to hear your story. i am going through a rough time too, but i am starting to feel a little better. the people here on the board will certainly be able to guide you. i am not sure if you know about meetings for naranon or alanon but i know they can be helpful. i really just wanted to say hi and tell you you are not alone-
the wisodom and expereince other others will be better for you than me!