Thank you, I had been too depressed to work out , too depressed to eat, or think about having sex or going on a date. It's been all about the baby and trying to hold it together . For some reason , I don't want my ex to move on . I keep thinking , I don't want some other girl to have the family that I couldn't have. I'm afraid if I start dating I will just be doing it out of loneliness and not because I feel like getting to know someone. Plus I still have a lit of emotional energy tied into the past and it doesn't stop because I want it to. Yes, my little battery friend is doing fine and says hi
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Can I be honest ? I also wonder if him working with a sponsor the past four months has changed him . He does crappy things still but he has never apologized for anything i'n the past three years. Ugh . At least I found al-anon . At least I'm not alone anymore, at least I don't think I'm the crazy one anymore . Ok , at least I know how I contribute to the craziness . There is hope .
I do not see a therapist . I cannot afford one at this time.
I was seeing one for the past year but finances have gotten tight.