Yeh i feel you,i also struggle with the guilt,shame and anger at myself for believing all the bs,but at the end of the day its done and we cannot change it so its best to be proud of yourself for getting out of it because that is a very hard thing to do as everyone on here knows.
We should all stop looking for ways to blame ourselfs because after all thats all we did when we were with them and thats why we stayed stuck with them.
Now we are armed with knowledge and could smell a rat from 200 miles away!!
I say congratulations for being free of the drunken a** wipe!! x