Yes, you are right! I feel like the road to recovery and peace is so slippery. All I know is I have not found peace trying all of my methods in dealing with him. So I really need to rely on al-anon and meetings . I am not hopeful, Im just very puzzled. Honestly, I am trying not to be mad at myself for feeling happy tht he wanted to apologize, becuase throwing that into the mix isn't going to do any good.
I am praying that I bring my higher power with me to any lunches I might or might not go to this week!