Old 10-24-2010, 08:32 AM
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hello-kitty
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Cleaning up the mess is part of recovery from addiction. You can't really look at it as a separate issue. Getting clean is the easy part. Staying clean takes life long effort.

The thing that I keep in mind is that I didn't choose to use because cleaning up the mess I had created was going to be too difficult. I chose to use because I was addicted to crack. When I finally got serious about getting (and staying) clean, I was willing to do whatever it took to get my life back. I accepted that there was nothing so bad about being clean, that using drugs/alcohol won't make worse.

An addict in recovery knows this and it guides their thinking on a daily basis. It's about taking life one day at a time. If I make wise choices today, my life will improve tomorrow. If I make poor choices today, my life will get worse.

Being allowed to deal with the consequences of my addiction was a blessing to me. It makes me want to stay clean so I don't lose everything. Again.
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