I'm 38 yrs. old I started drinking around 14 (can't recall) anyway the fun is all gone for me.,waking up wondering what I did this time, getting into fights with my bf in front of kids moving them in &out of the house. Just isn't fun any more. What may be fun for you isn't much fun for the others around you who care and worry about you, that's the selfishness that I had a problem with. A good friend said the other day in reocovery an alcoholics drink is never empty it's always half full. Good luck to you Sharpknife, I'm glad you're here and welcome aboard!!