hey, chicory,
i remember saying to myself so many times, that i just wanted to get un-sick. i really, really wanted to be healthier, but i think that even while i was making progress, i didn't realize it, couldn't see it, it was never quick enough.
hindsight is a wonderful gift. sometimes the thing we see causes us pain, but that points us to where we need to look. sometimes it makes us feel joyous.
i can see that, although i have miles to go before i sleep, progress has definitely been made. sometimes, i even feel like a new person, but inside a skin that is so familiar.
i wouldn't wish the pain i went through when i was wrestling with my awarenesses, but ya know, i truly believe it was necessary. i am so, so grateful for the lessons.
peace be with you tonight