Waving ta ta to 30 years of one's life is not a small act, and causes a lot of heartache, grief and often, some doubt. It is not something we just get over in a few weeks, or even months.
I gets easier to cope with, but it takes time and we revisit different emotions over again, which can be uncomfortable, and can lead to us thinking we may be stuck. You will move on, at the pace your body and mind set for you.