rubber band man
you can see by my other thread that i am starting to move forward, and i am glad about that. i hate though how quickly i can go from that to having the return of the sinking feeling.
i lost my cell phone today, or left it in my car. i was cool all day about it, but now i am thinking- what if i cant find it and she needs to call.
(and the answer i am expecting to see is- thats a good thing. at least now i partly agree, except i dont want her thinking i am ignoring her)
starting tomorrow i am without a car for about two months at least. what is she want to go to that detox place 2 hours away.
(the anser i expect is- she will find a ride. i dont know who would take her)
its like i am attached to a rubber band. i start to pull away, but hte further i get, i start to feel the tension and i beginto allow myself to be pulled back.
i guess this is normal.
(i hope the title of this thread didnt make that 70s song get stuck in your head)